Wednesday, May 7, 2008

a yearning for flight ...

When I was a young girl, I often wanted to fly ... but not on an airplane. I would watch the graceful soaring of the birds and just wanted to experience ... gliding through the air!Tonight if I could, I would first of all fly down to El Paso and gather Diana and Emma, Christopher and Matthew under my wings and just hold them for a very long time ... and then after a little while (days), I would take to the air and go all the way around the world to see my soldier boy ...

I can imagine it's been a hard day for Diana and the children. It's been difficult for me too. I'm so thankful for the Psalms when my heart aches. Listen to some of Psalm 91 ~

"Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
This I declare of the LORD:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
He is my God, and I am trusting Him ...


His faithful promises are your armor and protection ...
If you make the LORD your refuge,
if you make the Most High your shelter,
no evil will conquer you ...
for He orders his angels to protect you wherever you go.
The LORD says, 'I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.'"

I talked to Jesse last night. It was nice to hear his kind voice one more time before he had to return to Iraq. I'm going to make his birthday card tonight, which will make me feel closer to him somehow. It feels very sad not to have seen him while he was here in the states. If any of you would like to send him a card (his birthday is next week), and you don't have his address, just e-mail me and I'll send it on to you.

I'm trusting the LORD to take care of him and give strength to Diana. I know they would appreciate our prayers ...

Thursday, May 1, 2008

winter is past ...

"My lover said to me, 'Rise up, my beloved,
my fair one, and come away.
For the winter is past,
and the rain is over and gone.
The flowers are springing up,
and the time of singing birds has come ...'"
SOLOMONS SONG 2:10-12 NLB

It was one of those days where I just couldn't stay inside ... everything outside was calling to me! I worked in the yard for awhile and then I took a brief ramble through the woods ...

... and I found these beautiful flowers popping up through layers of dead leaves and branches ...
New life was everywhere ... the renewal of plants and trees and flowers ... every leaf and pedal unique and perfectly formed ...

I was thinking about how faithful God is to His promise ~ "As long as the earth remains, there will be springtime and harvest, cold and heat, winter and summer, day and night." GENESIS 8:22


" ... those who become Christians become new persons.
They are not the same anymore,
for the old life is gone.
A new life has begun!
All this newness of life is from God ..."
2 CORINTHIANS 5:17-18 NLB

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Swept off my feet!

Do you remember how I told you I am a substitute reader in the library over at Campau Elementary School? Well, today was the first day I was back there since our trip to Texas. I walked into Mrs. Ewings' 2nd grade class just after lunch today to tell her I would wait for her class upstairs in the library. The class was just filing in the room from outdoor lunch recess. Mrs. Ewing was still outside corraling children. Armani, a little shrimp of a boy, ran up to me shouting, "You're back! You're back!" and then he wrapped his arms around my legs and hoisted me around the room ... in the air! Off my feet! I was SO shocked and SO thankful that Mrs. Ewing was still outside and that only three other children were present to witness the amazing strength of this small boy (and my embarrassment) and I was SO afraid he would stumble and we would both go falling all over each other to the ground and that I would CRUSH him! I finally convinced him to put me down, only to have two other rather small people offer to carry me around the room as well. I assured them I was far too heavy for them, gathered my composure and hurried upstairs to the library ... where I am glad to report there were NO repeat performances of premature gallantry! I read our story with the children sitting around me, my feet planted firmly on the ground.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Tagged!

I didn't notice until late in the day yesterday that I (along with all of you) had been tagged by Sabrina. We are all supposed to choose six words that sum us up today, a rather succinct sort of self-assessment! I will list the six words, but then I have to give explanation ~ I'm in a rambling kind of mood today, so I'm not sure it will be brief.

1. Thankful
2. Blessed
3. Discontented
4. Melancholy
5. Frustrated
6. Trusting


I'm thankful because God has blessed my life in tons of ways ~ materially and otherwise. I live in a nice house in a beautiful and safe neighborhood, drive a cute gas-efficient car, have an overly abundant wardrobe (especially shoes), have no financial indebtedness, etc. I enjoy excellent health, am rather happily married to Mr. Jones, have a blended family of six completely unique children (plus four interesting spouses), eight beautiful grandchildren, a wonderful variety of friends, Nana is safe and sound with Cookie ... so what's with numbers 3, 4 and 5?

Perhaps it's just been a mixed-up week ... my emotions have been everywhere ... something about Jesse being "home" from Iraq yet still being 1600 miles away from Grand Rapids. I struggled with this all week long ~ wanting to jump on a plane or train or bus and just go and see him! We've talked on the phone, and he is healthy and strong and good ... and I am thankful he is with Diana and the kids for his R & R. But I miss him and I miss his family. It's been almost a year now since any of them have been here to my house and I've been in tears all week about it! When I was with them back in March, Jesse was in Iraq! But those days I played with Emma, Chris and Matthew I felt such peace and a deep contentment ... like this was exactly what I was meant to do ... we didn't have to be doing anything special, nothing that cost any money ~ we just colored, made cutouts, read books, climbed on playground equipment ... and my grandma-heart was so FULL. Without them, I feel rather melancholy.

I want to make a difference in this world. Since I can't be a grandma here in Grand Rapids, I have been volunteering at various places and activities. But this week, two of those volunteer events were cancelled, last minute! And so I have a feeling of worthlessness ... and frustration.

It's just that I take seriously the words that Jesus spoke: "Much is required from those to whom much is given ..." (Luke 12:48) I know that He is looking for a "good return on His investment." And so, even though I am not gifted to be a teacher of the 3's over at Calvary Church, I've studied my lesson for tomorrow trusting that God will continue to work good things in me and through me, for His glory. Sorry about all the whining ...

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Butterfly magic ... more pictures!

"God looked over all he had made,
and he saw that it was excellent in every way!"
GENESIS 1:31

I returned to Frederik Meijer Gardens this morning to get another look at the butterflies. There were so many different ones from the time I had been there before!

This beautiful blue one is called Morpho peleides. It flitters all over the place and when it lands, it almost immediately closes its wings, which are brown with eyespots ... really beautiful details, but annoying if you really want a picture of the wings open! I took zillions of pictures trying to just get one decent shot ... this is as good as it got for me! The two shots below are the blue butterflies with their wings closed ~ they are very beautiful then too, don't you think?

This is a tree nymph (below) and it is one of my favorites. I love the lines and patterns on the wings ... you can almost see through them ...
Below, there are a couple of Common Morphos (I think) with their wings closed sitting on a feeding dish.
I've been having a lot of trouble with uploading pictures tonight; but that's okay because everything around the house is on the blink as well ... the plumbing in the kitchen and main bathroom sinks went bizzerk and I've been mopping up significant water mixed in with orange peel and other assorted partially disposed food items. Mr. Jones is presently shopping for a plumbing SNAKE to see if he can solve the problem. Catch ya later!



P.S. It is now Wednesday afternoon. Our plumbing problem has been taken care of thanks to our in-house plumber and I've uploaded some more butterfly pictures. I had taken some over to Picnik to make prettier, but now I can't upload those here ~ I'm not sure why exactly, because it will allow me to do a FEW ... I'll just save the real pretty ones for greeting cards.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Delayed Easter thoughts ...

April 20, 2008 is Passover on the Jewish calendar and is actually celebrated this entire week. It usually corresponds more closely with when we celebrate Easter here in the west, but four weeks separate them this year. However, the Eastern Orthodox churches are celebrating Easter next Sunday, at the close of Passover.

I had intended to post some pictures during Easter week of our trip(s) to Israel, to share with you some pictures of the very places "the greatest story ever told" took place ... but we were on vacation Easter week (and the following weeks), on the road, and I just never had the opportunity. So I'll share them now.

The Third Night! There is a passage of Scripture that always bothered me from quite a young age ... "For as Jonah was in the belly of the great fish for three days and three nights, so I, the Son of Man, will be in the heart of the earth for three days and three nights." Matthew 12:40 This is Jesus talking! Three days and three nights?! I used to try and do the math, but I could never get it to work out ... and I was provoked because if Jesus said it, it was true ~ wasn't it? I just never noticed before that Jesus didn't claim to be DEAD three days and three nights ... He said he was "in the heart of the earth." I just always assumed that He was talking about being dead during that duration ...

The picture below (which I did copy from the internet) is of a dungeon, deep down in the earth, all the way down to bedrock. This dungeon was found underneath the excavated home of the high priest Caiaphas ~ remember him? Jesus was brought to his house and questioned the night he was arrested, that Thursday night so long ago. Read the account in Matthew 26:52-74. This is also where Peter was sitting outside in the courtyard and denied Christ three times. Chapter 26 of Matthew ends with Peter's denial and Chapter 27 begins with "Very early in the morning ..."
So where did Jesus spend the night that night ... it's possible he spent it right here in this dungeon ~ deep "in the heart of the earth." Look at it closely! There are holes in the stone that were used for chaining prisoners to suspend them just above the floor ~ and it's totally dark! Our tour group in 2001 was taken down here and all of the lights were turned out! Such blackness! One of the pastors read Psalm 22 by flashlight down in this hole in the ground.

"My God, my God! Why have you forsaken me? (verse 1)
... I am a worm and not a man.
I am scorned and despised by all!
Everyone who sees me mocks me.
They sneer and shake their heads saying
~ is this the one who relies on the Lord?
Then let the Lord save him!
If the Lord loves him so much,
let the Lord rescue him!
(verses 6-7)
My life is poured out like water,
and all my bones are out of joint.
My heart is like wax, melting within me.
(verse 14)
My enemies surround me like a pack of dogs;
an evil gang closes in on me.
They have pierced my hands and feet ...
They divide my clothes among themselves
and throw dice for my garments.
(verse 16-18)

Perhaps this is the first of three nights Jesus spent in the heart of the earth ... he had not yet been crucified ... but he could have spent part of Thursday night right in this dungeon. Because Scripture says Jesus died on Friday and was buried and rose again on the dawn of Sunday morning ... that's only two nights ...

I know it's like splitting hairs, but it was a huge comfort to me to be in this place ... and terribly sobering to read the prophecies of Christ's suffering from Psalm 22 right there, down deep in the earth ... and think that perhaps, just maybe, my Savior agonized the last hours of his life in this cold dark place.


"He was crushed for our iniquities." This is a quote from Isaiah 53. I have always loved this chapter of Isaiah. Another translation puts it this way: "He was wounded and crushed for our sins." (verse 5). This passage took on a real visual meaning from our 2004 study trip to Israel.

The last Thursday Jesus was alive, he and his disciples walked over to the Mount of Olives to a garden where they hung out on a regular basis ... Scripture says so ... the Garden of Gethsemane! The Mount of Olives is just across the Kidron Valley from the city of Jerusalem and it's not a mountain like we think of a mountain ... it's actually a hill ... and guess what it was covered with? Olive trees (hence the name) ... and there are many olive trees that remain there even today.


We had a Bible study right inside this small garden up on the Mount of Olives ... overlooking the old city of Jerusalem ... it was so awesome to be there! Let me tell you what I found out about olive trees ... most of what I write here will be direct quotes from our teachers and guides, so I'm going to highlight it and post it in a different color so that you know it's not me talking here ... you all know I only have average intelligence, so I'm going to give proper credit to my teachers.

First of all, Josephus says when the Romans came and sacked Jerusalem (70 AD) they came up here and cut down every tree on the Mount of Olives, put all of it into the city, and burned everything down to the ground.

WHY?

Olive production was central to the heart of Jewish economy ... and even their worship revolved around the production of oil from the olive. The picture below is of a machine ... it's called a "gethsemane" ~ it is an olive crush. The olives would be gathered, put in here, and some kind of animal or person would push the huge stone around, and it would crush the olives. Around it would go, until it made kind of a pulp. This pulp would be gathered up and placed in woven baskets.

The picture below is of an olive press. The crushed olives (pulp) would be placed into woven baskets and stacked and then put into this press where huge stones were tied and the weight of the stones would push hard against the baskets and drops of olive oil would come out into a basin below. There were many different pressings, the "virgin" one being the best one (just like today).
So what was the oil used for? In the early centuries, olive oil was essential for light. You needed it for your oil lamps in your home as well as the huge menorahs and the candlebras in the Temple. The best oil was used for this purpose.

On the Mount of Olives, there were olive crushes (gethsemanes) and caves for olive presses and olive production. This is where Jesus went to pray with his disciples. What does Scripture tell us happened that night in the garden? It tells us that Jesus agonized and sweat "great drops of blood." The image is right from the olive press ... Jesus was afflicted, a very heavy weight was on him, pressing him down. Matthew 26:38 quotes Jesus this way: "My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death."

Also, by what other name do we know Jesus? Christ! And what does the name "Christ" mean? Messiah, or anointed ... anointed with what? OIL is what kings were anointed with ... I now have so many visual pictures of what this means.

The place of the cross. Golgotha is the Hebrew word for skull. The word Calvary is the Greek equivalent. The picture below marks the place where Jesus was crucified. There is a huge church built over the site and it is perhaps the holiest site in all of Christianity, The Church of the Holy Sepulchre. The church was built in roughly 330-340 AD! It was built and destroyed many times through the centuries, although parts of it are the original structure. Five (or perhaps seven) major religious groups control this church: the Armenians, the Greek Orthodox, the Catholic Church, the Egyptian Coptics as well as Ethiopians and others ... sometimes many services are going on all at the same time in various chapels within the structure.

At the time of Jesus' death, this area was just outside the city wall. And according to Roman law a person had to be crucified outside the city on a main street, at eye level. So the pictures of Jesus on a cross up on a hill? According to Roman law ~ no way! It had to be on a busy street (which this was), on a main intersection next to a city gate (which this was) ...
Our entire group spent about a half hour at the site of the crucifixion ... it's way down underneath the structure of the church ... archeologists believe this was an old abandoned quarry in Jesus' day ... an appropriate place for Jewish execution, as well as a place where the Romans would bring people to be executed. The main road ran right past it.

We toured the entire church building and then were allowed to separate and explore the place for awhile. I wandered back down here and spent about 15 minutes all alone ... I will remember my time there for all of my life. This church has changed hands many times. When the Crusaders finally took control of it from the Arabs (in about the year 1100 AD) they made a deal. They made some changes to the building and restored parts of it that had been destroyed but because this was still Muslim, they made a deal with them. They gave the key to this place to two Arab families. To this very day, two Muslim families who live in the Old City of Jerusalem, still have the key to the door. Every morning at 4:00 a.m. they come here and open the door; and then the key changes hands to the other Muslim family and they close it at 7:00 p.m. It's a way of keeping peace among the various Christian groups that control the church! So the Arabs have the key to the Church of the Holy Sepulchre and it is the very same key that was passed on by the Crusaders over 800 years ago!
The picture above is of the cupola in the main chapel area ...

The Empty Tomb. Pictured below is part of a tomb complex underneath the same church, a little walk from Calvary.

Archeologists have studied these tombs and have concluded they are first century tombs. It is very possible that this complex of tombs was where they laid the body of Jesus after he was crucified.
This picture of the door is from another site that folk speculate was possibly the burial site of Jesus ~ but archeologists say these tombs are actually second century BC ~ but I love the Scripture here from the angel on that first Easter morning. "Don't be afraid! he said. I know you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He isn't here! He has been raised from the dead, just as he said would happen. Come, see where his body was lying." Matthew 28: 5-6

I believe with all my heart that Jesus was crushed for the sin of every human being, took the punishment that should have been ours, was in the earth three days and three nights, and NOW LIVES ... I never ever get tired of hearing His story told again and again ...

"The poor will eat and be satisfied.
All who seek the LORD will praise him.
Their hearts will rejoice with
everlasting joy.
The whole earth will acknowledge the LORD and return to him.
People from every nation will bow down before him.
For the LORD is king! He rules all the nations.
Let the rich of the earth feast and worship.
Let all mortals ~ those born to die ~
bow down in his presence.
Future generations will also serve him.
Our children will hear about the wonders of the LORD.
His righteous acts will be told
to those yet unborn.
They will hear about everything he has done."

PSALM 22:26-31

Saturday, April 19, 2008

The Church that changes the world ...

The theme at Calvary church for the past several months has been: "The Church that changes the world." This weekend was designated, "God loves Grand Rapids" and as a church, we were looking for community service projects to commit ourselves to. Our Sunday School class, as well as the entire church choir (100+ members) asked Urban Family Ministries if there was any work they needed us to do ...

We ended up being assigned to Camp Scott-E. What on earth is Camp Scott-E? It's one of those very cool stories that only God can accomplish for and through people. Years ago, this land was given to a church by a family who wanted to honor the death of their 3-month-old son (his name was Scott). A camp was built here and used for years and years, but then that particular church stopped growing and the camp fell into disuse. Anyway, it's a long story, but the folk who originally owned this piece of property, really wanted it to be used in the memory of their little son. So all of this land and everything on it has been given to Urban Family Ministries to use as they see fit!
Our group did some clearing of hiking paths and pruning dead trees ... here is Mr. Jones hard at work ...
This map of the camp shows the 83 acres of woods, nature trails, a spring-fed swimming hole, a large retreat center (in need of much work and repair) that has a barrack-type atmosphere divided in half with 30 bunks on each side separated by a huge gathering room, fireplace, bathrooms with showers, and kitchen. There are picnic shelters, an open outdoor chapel, playground, baseball diamond, a basketball court, and beautiful Tamarack Creek that winds its way here and there ...
By about 3:00 this afternoon, the Super Saturday kids arrived to have a look around the place, take some hikes in the woods, share a hotdog dinner, bonfire, and marshmallow roast.
Some of these children had never taken a walk in the woods before ... today was their very first experience outside in the wide-open space! I think some of them were completely overwhelmed.
About 150 children and leaders gathered in this open chapel area and sang some praise songs ...
Urban Family Ministries plans to do some day-camps and overnights ... they can actually do a four day, three-night deal but if they do a week-long camp, the State of Michigan comes in with endless camp regulations such as having to have an on-site nurse, etc. ~ along with much more stringent building and site codes that would take years to comply with before being able to use the facility. Calvary Church also has plans to use Camp Scott-E for weekend retreats. It was great to be part of the Church that changes the world today and to know that inter-city children will reap the benefit of our labor.
"You must love the LORD your God
with all your heart, all your soul,
all your strength, and all your mind.
And, you must love your neighbor
as yourself." Luke 10:27